I try so hard to pretend I'm okay 💔💔. I try so hard it exhausts me 💔💔; I have no energy, I barely want to eat, and all I want to do is sleep 😢😢. But then someone looks at me and expects me to be okay, and I have to pretend to be happy again. I just want to break down and cry 😢😢💔💔. I just want to get all these feelings out of me. But by the time I finally have a moment alone to fade away, it's like the feelings have already been bottled up so much that they just don't want to come out. So I just lay there... wishing I could fall asleep so I could wake up refreshed, but my mind won't shut off 💔💔; I'm not thinking, but I'm not silent either. It's strange to always be someone people see as happy and calm when inside I just feel a deep sadness 💔💔 that I wish someone could see; I wish he would hug me and tell me everything would be alright 😢😢 Beloud