People want to reconcile with a version of you that no longer exists. You couldn’t go back to who you used to be if you tried. You will NEVER see certain people, places, or situation the same as before and they will never hold as much significance or power over you the way that they previously did. They liked you more when you were naive, easily fooled and forgiving to the point of self neglect and you love yourself too much now to return to that version of you. You’ve had to experience SO MUCH warfare, losses, and regret for putting others before you and now ppl couldn’t pay you to abandon yourself. You’ve learned your lesson. Beloud